The Moment Everything Felt Right


"To live, not just exist"

I've always believed that life is meant to be lived by moments, memories that we get to keep for the rest of our lives. Moments that brings us to the peak of our happiness, moments that will get us through the worst and make us conquer anything. I might have doubted myself a few times but I never doubted my capability to love, and to fall in love completely.

I remember during my 22nd Birthday, I told my friends that I was so excited to fall in love again. Everybody was so happy for me, greeting me, sending me messages even tagging me on Facebook about falling in love and finding the right love. Things might have been difficult for me but I was absolutely lucky that during my singleness, I had people who supported me and showered me with so much affection, attention and love. Instead of breaking down, I picked myself up and started working on a better 'me'. I worked out, read books, went out alone and did almost everything I couldn't have done without a partner. I wanted to do things on my own and really feel the bittersweet feeling of loneliness. Because it was easier to appreciate having someone to be with once you've felt how it's like to be alone. I took advantage of the things I can do alone to really manifest what I want and need for a partner, I meditated during Yoga classes, listened to romantic songs every morning on my way to work and embraced positivity and happiness. Because I knew and I believed that God reserved someone wonderful for me. 

The moment I finally went out of my comfort zone, that's when I met Paolo. My conversations with Paolo were very different, we talked about the things nobody ever dared to ask me before like my favorite books, movies, even my political views. Right then and there, I knew he was different. And it felt great to have someone you can share your ideas with. Paolo and I came from two different worlds, and it truly felt like God brought us together. During my blessed singleness, I completely raised all my worries and concerns to God and in return he graced me with a promise that He has a great plan for me. All I had to do was believe, trust and let God help me define my self worth. The moment Paolo's hand touched mine, it felt as if God pushed him to do so. It felt right. Everything finally felt right. Like everything I was praying for, is finally coming to life. People think I'm rushing but with Paolo I instantly felt stillness,  I found a bravery in myself because of him. Everyday I'm learning new things about him and about me. Everyday, I open myself to new opportunities and new experiences because I know he'll be there. And I have never felt this way in my entire life. It was the perfect timing for me because I was already fulfilled on my own, and then I found someone who can I can share this fulfillment with. ❤  I know in my heart that I could face everything alone, but for the first time in my life, I was able to completely break all my walls down and let someone in, someone I know I could depend on like "yes we got this, we can do this together". 

Because Paolo, it's you and me. Through anything and everything. I don't know if anybody could ever understand the love I have for you, but I hope you know that when I look into your eyes my love for you only grows. Every time you hold me in your arms, I pray to God and cry a little inside because I want you. Forever. I want to be with you for the rest of my life. You are the man I prayed for and as long as I have you, I have everything I want and need. Thank you for changing my entire world, for the better. If there's one thing I could promise you, it's that I will never stop believing in us. And I will never stop praying for you. 

1 comment:

  1. gush gush soooo romantic! may you be happy and grow old together